Question: Have you ever wanted to do something and you had so many ideas that you couldn't bring them out of the excitement, well that just happen to me.

Woke up to a cold but sunny day, feeling good and ready to face all my challenges with God in front of me guiding me all the way, glory be his name!

Wow its incredible the vulgarity of some humans! Wow they can just say or call another person a nasty word without thinking of response of the other.

In Memory of My Jewel

Remembering my sister:
The sun shined on Sept. 24,1968 one beautiful Sept. morning we were all so happy the bundle of joy was here 8lbs. 21inches long so rose and adorable, what a blessing this new member of the family was, mom and dad where beaming with happiness. How I loved this precious jewel, I felt it my own that's how a 13 yr old girl that's longing for a playmate felt even thou this jewel was like a living doll you could take care and feed and dress up and show to all your friends my play thing grew up to be a very lovable and caring person full of love towards every person that got close. My jewel was good at almost everything except on love but every body else loved my jewel. I was always sadden to see how my jewel longed to have a soul mate someone to grow old with, but my jewel got used to this feeling of wanting to be the other half and was dedicated to being with loving friends and family and enjoying life or trying to, as years passed by my jewel decided to be near family and so be it, the jewel was near loved ones, my jewel seemed happy but I knew my jewel wasn't happy, specially now getting older and alone and now my jewel got sick, and continue to get sick until one day in May the sun didn't rise not for my jewel nor my family only sadnest covered me the question why? what happend is the only thing on my mind. I made this story short but in real life it wasn't that short nor insignificant it was fully lived but it could have been lived a bit longer we had plans and I was the one that was to go frist I'm the oldest. I offent think if my jewel had that soul mate my jewel most likly been alive right now. 39 yrs. is not that long and it feels so unfair to know my jewel didn't want to die, but my jewel is gone now but never forgotten, and my heart still hurts to know I will no longer here the voice not the laughter, I will no longer get those telephone calls in the middle of the night asking me ''what you doing'' and talking until dawn, telling my jewel all my deepest Sucrets, I feel a better part of me is gone and I can't get it back. I sometimes forget and I say to myself I'm going to tell my jewel this but I stop cold because I just remember my jewel is not here but then I get a feeling my jewel is near so I do say what I had to say, but it's not the same, I still miss you, I still want to talk to you here your beautiful voice. But I know we'll meet again I'm not afraid you'll come with my angel to pick me up to go back home.

Letting Go

Still trying to let go, but it still hurts, maybe not as bad as in the begining for a time I honestly thought I was going to go crazy missing my sister that in realaty was my brother, Saw him as a baby saw him with his fight for what he really was at the end he wong, I just hope and pray he waas happy.
So happy I never felt shame nor regrets I loved him or her no matter what! But one thing I do regret I never said I love you and she cried one day telling me letting me know I never said i loved him, Why? Why? didn't I tell her how mush I cared and worried and how deep was my love for my brother was and is.
This feeling of why is as if someone took a chunk of me and buried it with him....I miss you, I still miss you and most important I love you Freddy(frances)

Get busy

I have a very deep and sentimental cusin and he said something that if you think about it's true.....it's about life that life is what you make of it so get busy making it a great life. We waist so mush time in things, that are only a waist of time and energy, life is too short it can go in a whisper

To Creat you have to know the Creator

Yes to Create one must look inside and feel for others and let others inspire you.
as you inspire them, we may not be wear of this but we inspire others.