help with the pain of loss

OK how can I start or what should I start with, right now there's pain in my heart, I just lost a good friend, I'm hurting and she wasn't my child I can imagine her mother. My friend left ed 2 very young boys , she just turned 32, full of life and depression and alcohol messed up her liver and life, you ask yourself why??? some say she took her own life but I don't and I just can't believe she would terminate her own life specially when she had plans, nobody makes plans if there are planning to take their life or would they??? questions, and more questions.Only time will tell. if anyone reads this and can help me please do your comments if truthful will help and ease this pain this feeling of denial.

WOW Where to Start

Hi All: It's funny I haven't blogged in a long time I'm going to say I was a busy lady but I can't... I have been improving my creative and learning skills at the same time taking care of business...Whatever that means, I just haven't gotten down to it...as soon as I can I'll post some pictures for you all to see my new creation

s. love you for stopping buy pardon some missed spelled words, but that's me. God bless

My 2013 Xmas Cards

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2 New puppies have been added

Yes now we have 2 more puppies Charlie and Angel check them out cute as a botton. this is Angel just chillin..

this one(up) here is Charlie he's trying to stand....

My Loves

High I know it's been a long time but I guess I did'nt have mush to say or nothing worth saying, but now I feel I have to get a few things off my chest... I love to craft, I talk to myself while I craft no I don't answer myself but I listen to myself and the way I tend to express myself to me, and I must say sometimes I'm very hard on myself, I expect too much I don't cut myself and slack wow that's not nice to say about me I should treat me better...anyway....I treat others alot better....well like I started to say I love to craft it fills me with love and warms warms my heart. But crafting is expensive and I need more room or I'm just going to rent another appartment just for my stuff, and I can't afford that no way no how. I try to make my own embellishments but I always have to huy that certain thing that paper, like I love G45 I want all there papers and K and Company and Bo Bunny and My minds Eye and aot of others onh now I'm loving Webster papers wow and don't get me going on Prima the papers, stamps...the flowers so magnificent it's like they all call out to me buy me buy me. What's an unemployed crafter to do?? But I do know if it weren't for my crafting I would of gone crazy crafting keeps me grounded and sane and most important Happy...

Some new, some not so new

I really did'nt think much of these sort of clubs, but now I have to say for a crafter and for a crafter that wants to continue to grow in the craft world these clubs?? are the best they are the best thing that could happend to a crafter that's a bit timid and shy about her work and the sharing with others and connecting with people that love to craft as you do everyone should join and do the swaps and the challenges it's the best advise I could ever give to any crafter that's not sure weather to join or not, my favorite one is MIni Album Scrapes (MAS) it's the best and they have a store (in house) that's fantastic and Lisa is a no bull person putting on the table all rules... I have grown and I love all these ladies, I should also mention A Lil Scrap Of Heaven too and Creating A Crafty life. Come check them out.

Always thinking always creating always trying to renew myself

that's me always thinking, praying, and at the end giving thanks for after all all God's blessings and there lots of blessings I always make sure to look for thous blessings you know the little miracles but are there little miracle? I'm always looking for the miracles...and I see them in you in me my children and my grandchildren, in the children ,the flowers the unsaid words that are felt. How love and see no imperfections in the things we love. God is good , life is good and I'm jobless but when the load gets too heavy my father carries it for me he's a good father always looking after his children is us that never listen like all children. Thank you for all the labeled good and for all the labeled bad, enjoy just enjoy

The day and the whether, sometimes good sometime ok sometimes like sh___ it all dependes . And how was your day mine naw

Number how low or high is your number not how OLD are you, well I'm 56 now and I'm proud of it not only am I 56 I Don't feel any different well it depends on

How time flies, 56 already??? Funny I Don't feel 56, but what is a 56 year OLD woman wow old it seems like you shouldn't ask How OLD are you (but) what's your

the little Pink Bunny

she's the cuty of cuties nothing is sweeter then a Pink or Yellow or a Blue Bunny

Hi I have a New Pet

Bunnies are so cute! do you like mine ?

My Loves

God, Angels, My Grandchildren all 6 of them, My Family, My Friends, People I'll meet, The Sun, The Stars, Mother Moon, Mother Earth, Water, My Beautiful Cockatiel Sweety (that loves to pull on my hair and earrings), Dogs, Cats, White mice, A Squirrel I met in Washington DC, there are more things.....

My New Pups

Hi these are my New loves they are very special just like all God creations want to give one or two of these pups to have is to love them.

It's a Matter of the Heart

Yes my dear it's a matter of the heart, it's that feeling you get when you connect with a special person and you feel you know that person from some place but just can't put your finger on it, and then you wait and see if your heart isn't fooling you or maybe your going crazy...but then Pow! how could 2 people that never met have so mush in common and then you do realize that there is a connection but you fight it cause you don't want that person to think your crazy or a nuts. This is only the second time this has has happened to me, that I have actually spoken to the person I feel this connection, and when this person tells me things you were afraid to mention, you know like the rituals to mother moon, wow talk about connection and spirituality and karma all wraped into one. Life is good and

I'm so HAPPY

It doesn't take much to make me happy, I'm not even employed right now, looking but things are bad out there, but I'm looking and I will not lose faith that's the last thing I would lose or misplace , life is still good and the sun will come out tomorrow, but I'm happy, you have to be happy I have my of Angels besides me each fill me with hope and love and encouragement, not one put down and even if I would run into a negative individual I assure you when that person he/she would be a happy person too.

My Life is going to the Dogs

Well not really I'm involve with Dogs?? Like I said once before I love everything and I love Dogs and Dogs and more Dogs; therefor I decided to create them, yes make those beautiful true friends of humans that only know how to give unconditional true love and I name them too so soon in this blog you'll see my or our Dogs and I know you too will fall in love just like everyone that sees them.therefore if you like our Dogs leave a comment or two and if you want one leave me a comment too.

A Day At Imagine That!

Yes Imagine That! not what was expected but we got to spend time with Gianna's classmates and two fantastic Educators, Starting Point is very lucky to have two wonderful Educator's, they really care for our children and they are not old time teachers so we can't say oh it's the experience it's the love for the children and what they stand for. Gianna is very lucky to start her academic career with teachers like Ms. Deborah and Mrs. Wissem they are the perfect pair, they are taught respect and discipline and love all at the same time. I feel if we continew to encourage our children in this path we'll have a pretty good human being.

Thank you Ladies

Hi everyone I'm very happy I won the "Abby Contest" it was a surprise when I viewed the video and at the end Krystal mentioned a beautiful tag and I said oh someone else made a tag and no it was my tag! I always try to be at Elsa's UStream classes I know she's so good at what she does, I love her work and I love the work I have seen from you beautiful ladies like of cause Elsa at http://justafewdesigns.blogspot.com/ and Krystal at http://www.krystal.blogspot.com/ and Kimie at http://www.uniquescrapiness.blogspot.com/and Laura at http://followingthepapertrail.blogspot.com and many more. I don't try to imitate, because; ladies you are all so unique, your work and my family inspire me. Elsa is my Angel but I feel she's an Angel to all of us, thank God we crossed path and that in one way or another we enriched our lives by learning from each other. Thank you ladies Hugs and lots of love to you all.

Challenges are good for the soul

This Challenge was good for me I had fun and I surprised myself, and I'm looking froward to more challenges and being more open about my love for creating and learning, I have surrounded myself with lots of creative beautiful ladies, and there's still more to learn. I thank God and my Angels for putting me in the right path and leading me to all these Human Angeles, like Elsa from ''just a few designs'' there's an Angel that loves to teach, and Laura from ''follow the paper trail'' and there a few more... Bless them all and to all thank you.