help with the pain of loss

OK how can I start or what should I start with, right now there's pain in my heart, I just lost a good friend, I'm hurting and she wasn't my child I can imagine her mother. My friend left ed 2 very young boys , she just turned 32, full of life and depression and alcohol messed up her liver and life, you ask yourself why??? some say she took her own life but I don't and I just can't believe she would terminate her own life specially when she had plans, nobody makes plans if there are planning to take their life or would they??? questions, and more questions.Only time will tell. if anyone reads this and can help me please do your comments if truthful will help and ease this pain this feeling of denial.

WOW Where to Start

Hi All: It's funny I haven't blogged in a long time I'm going to say I was a busy lady but I can't... I have been improving my creative and learning skills at the same time taking care of business...Whatever that means, I just haven't gotten down to it...as soon as I can I'll post some pictures for you all to see my new creation

s. love you for stopping buy pardon some missed spelled words, but that's me. God bless

My 2013 Xmas Cards

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2 New puppies have been added

Yes now we have 2 more puppies Charlie and Angel check them out cute as a botton. this is Angel just chillin..

this one(up) here is Charlie he's trying to stand....

My Loves

High I know it's been a long time but I guess I did'nt have mush to say or nothing worth saying, but now I feel I have to get a few things off my chest... I love to craft, I talk to myself while I craft no I don't answer myself but I listen to myself and the way I tend to express myself to me, and I must say sometimes I'm very hard on myself, I expect too much I don't cut myself and slack wow that's not nice to say about me I should treat me better...anyway....I treat others alot better....well like I started to say I love to craft it fills me with love and warms warms my heart. But crafting is expensive and I need more room or I'm just going to rent another appartment just for my stuff, and I can't afford that no way no how. I try to make my own embellishments but I always have to huy that certain thing that paper, like I love G45 I want all there papers and K and Company and Bo Bunny and My minds Eye and aot of others onh now I'm loving Webster papers wow and don't get me going on Prima the papers, stamps...the flowers so magnificent it's like they all call out to me buy me buy me. What's an unemployed crafter to do?? But I do know if it weren't for my crafting I would of gone crazy crafting keeps me grounded and sane and most important Happy...

Some new, some not so new

I really did'nt think much of these sort of clubs, but now I have to say for a crafter and for a crafter that wants to continue to grow in the craft world these clubs?? are the best they are the best thing that could happend to a crafter that's a bit timid and shy about her work and the sharing with others and connecting with people that love to craft as you do everyone should join and do the swaps and the challenges it's the best advise I could ever give to any crafter that's not sure weather to join or not, my favorite one is MIni Album Scrapes (MAS) it's the best and they have a store (in house) that's fantastic and Lisa is a no bull person putting on the table all rules... I have grown and I love all these ladies, I should also mention A Lil Scrap Of Heaven too and Creating A Crafty life. Come check them out.

Always thinking always creating always trying to renew myself

that's me always thinking, praying, and at the end giving thanks for after all all God's blessings and there lots of blessings I always make sure to look for thous blessings you know the little miracles but are there little miracle? I'm always looking for the miracles...and I see them in you in me my children and my grandchildren, in the children ,the flowers the unsaid words that are felt. How love and see no imperfections in the things we love. God is good , life is good and I'm jobless but when the load gets too heavy my father carries it for me he's a good father always looking after his children is us that never listen like all children. Thank you for all the labeled good and for all the labeled bad, enjoy just enjoy